Do You Want To Stay Over?

Alex W.

Such simple words, yet my heart was racing and my mouth was dry. The unaccustomed boldness of my request to the man I had met only that evening, when he came to visit my housemate, surprised even me. To compound my surprise he said "yes" and we went to bed and made energetic love which was repeated first thing in the morning. Despite a string of girlfriends in earlier times, I had never found complete satisfaction in such relationships and knew deep down that it was men l wanted.

In my new job I was mixing with a few very 'out' gay men and maybe it was their influence that helped me to finally take the plunge and ask directly for what I wanted.

That fateful evening's impulsiveness led to a passionate relationship which, while short-lived, filled me with such elation and feelings of completeness that I wasted no further time in coming out to family, friends and workmates, to almost complete support and understanding. I felt as though my real life had finally begun and couldn't understand why I had waited so long for such happiness.

Although there had been occasional furtive liaisons with men over preceding years, it wasn't until I experienced my first 'love affair' that I began realize how fulfilling life could be if I allowed my 'real self' to take charge.

Needless to say the end of this first relationship was very painful, yet it didn't prevent me from pursuing further relationships, even at the comparatively late age of 32!

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